I wish you could make me laugh but you can't so bye bye

Since I moved in brussels I have one big problem that haunts my daily life: Good friends.
I really don't mean to brag, but people in greece are much more friendlier than those here. Since I came here I have very often felt lonely and rarely had a lot of fun with my new friends. I have a few girlfriends that I really trust, but even with them I don't the happiness a good friend can make you feel.

Yesterday as I was hanging out with a boy I have recently become really close friends with, I caught myself laughing with almost every other thing we talked about, and I felt very happy. He pointed out that I laugh all the time and I replied "I'm a very happy person i guess". At that instant I doubted myself because for the past year I never considered myself a happy person. He also told me that another friend of his, that I haven't met but I have been chatting with on facebook, thought that I am a very funny and pleasant person. Then I remembered myself with my friends in greece and realized that I actually am I very happy person as long I am with the right people. I realized that I need to spend more time with people capable to make me laugh.

However, I suppose it doesn't mean that the people who tend to make you laugh are those you should trust completely either. Then who am I to trust? Who is worth of everything I have to give to a friend?

And also.. a message to everyone: saying "Hello" or even just smiling is totally free of charge and it will not harm you in any way.  So you might as well say hi to someone who you used to hang out with once in a while. 

Make it stop, I'm getting dizzy

It has been about 2 weeks since school started and I am still in daydream mode. I need to get used to a routine that includes my needs and responsibilities and that it's easy to remember. 

I get home and there are about 50 ideas in my mind consisting of things i would like to do. The majority of them are types of food i want to eat and pictures that I wanna try and paint. Some others include reading about guitar or downloading music and of course, reading my currently favorite book. After a couple of hours of such activities I decide to do homework. This is done while watching tv series or listening to music, so I guess it makes sense that I make so many mistakes on my math homework. However, this year I have decided to be the good student I am meant to be and from now on I challenge myself to study without distractions. 

Anyhow, apart from academics I have decided to take my free time wasting to a whole new level by not wasting it anymore. First of all, I have wanted for a long to time to buy a wii but recently I persuaded myself that video games are a big waste of time, so I will buy a guitar instead and teach myself how to play it. So this weekend I will hopefully, finally, buy my guitar and I have already gotten books about learning to play the guitar. Second of all, I decide to reclaim my academic potential by participating in MUN and speech and debate club. Finally, the third point opens the subcategory of using my time in order to benefit myself directly. I will be spending an hour every tuesday evening in the gym with by friend who wants to lose weight and I will also start taking swimming lessons again, since it is the inly sport I am good at and in order to prepare for the team try outs later in the year. 

Along with exercising I also need to stop eating. Seriously, I eat every available piece of food I find and I never miss a chance to get food. That I a habit I am developing for the first time in my life since I have always been very moderate with the amount of food I eat. Possible reasons for this might be that at the age of 15 I am probably growing and need the food and also that I skip breakfast in the morning. So maybe I'll try to get some breakfast tomorrow, that will be my second challenge. Breakfast. 

Another interesting feeling I am experiencing is that as school days follow one another, I feel that I am kind of losing myself. I meet so many people and sometimes I forget that it is not up to their standards that I am leaving, but up to mine. I find myself seeking acceptance and recognition from people I don't know without stopping for a second to think what I really want. I have realized that the only way to really be alright around others is when you understand yourself. 

I just really want to watch a horror movie right now. I hope my friend can come over on friday so we can watch one together. When I first moved here and didn't have any friends who liked horror movies I tried to watch some by myself. I saw quite a few in fact... but then I realized it is way more fun with friends. 

If any one reads this: What's your favorite horror movie or just movie in general ..?